And.....so, I wonder

And so, I wonder -

do you ponder days long past

where dreams were ripe and worries came in last?

Is there hope swimming in your soul

or do you stew in pain grown old?

And so, I wonder.

Really, Fox News??

As I sit editing my next book, I find myself at a loss for words...baffled...bewildered.  It has nothing to do with the content of my book though.  I find myself in near tears as I read the stories of many courageous women, who willingly and purposefully decided to share their journey with me.  Their stories of strength and hope stand to raise awareness, compassion and hopefully A LOT more research. For centuries women have suffered with an incurable illness, Endometriosis...in silence and in shame.  Finally, finally, finally when this disease is getting a little more attention and finally being taken more seriously by the medical community and media.... I stumble across this story on the Fox News website.  Now, don't get me wrong here...just seeing the words Endometriosis pop up on any news site is a step in the right direction but I just wish, for the sake of credibility, that research was actually being put forth that would be a bigger step in terms of the cure and management of the disease. They lean towards the speculation that "the genes that interact with hormones that produce a more feminine appearance may also predispose women to severe Endometriosis." 

Thoughts anyone?? Share them here or on The Endo Project's facebook page.



 

Hang on to Hope

I still hang on to hope
that you'll be right there
sitting across the room
smiling at me
crocheting your blankets
and telling me jokes
bringing out the best in me
bringing out the best in me
but each time I look
there's an empty space
glaring, and taunting me

I still hang on to hope
when I unlock the door
and expect you'll be sitting right there
saying "your tea is hot,  how did it go...
how pretty you look today.."
it's  a stab to the heart when I know I'm alone
and Curly comes greeting me.

I still hang on to hope when
I think through the day
"can't wait to tell Madre,
she'll know what to say"
cause you bring out the best in me
you bring out the best in me

I still hang on to hope
as I sit alone...the silence it hurts
night after night
waitin for you to come home to me
cause you bring out the best in me
Madre, keep watch over me

RIP 9-5-2012

Come Go With Me...

I am you, you are me
sister-friend, come go with me

swimming in dreams, reachin for stars
unity's our business, near or far
I'll have your back and you'll have mine
miles and distance will collide in time

take my hand across that finish line
let's swallow that fear of failin
girl, now's our time

I am you, you are me
sister-friend, come go with me

In the midst of chaos, let's chase those dreams
yeah, we'll crush that doubt...
'cause now it's you and me
sister-friend come go with me....
They're callin our names..do ya hear the screams?

Afraid I'll spill those lies?...

I see clear your face in my past
your wrongs and rights
distance has made me wise
to you and your revolving door
of go away  - come back sentiments
even now as I am to speak
only when spoken to
I see in no uncertain terms
your manipulation of undivided
and unconditional love
you knew not what you did
as ignorance was your guide

self-centeredness at your side
but in these here moments you
know the thoughts, words, and actions
that created a division of people
and how you made her dizzy with
jealousy because in fact, her gut
was right, as was mine
you did not break the ties
before that Saturday we had tea
you reached out yet, 

I knew the lies inside

Yeah, I knew the lies inside
so now you keep your distance
are you afraid I'll spill your lies?

Afraid I'll spill those lies...

(a repost and the cycle continues)

Hope Dancing Alone

Dreams never die

relationships that have 

been cast upon 

willowly words

in lavender fields 

of delusion and disaster

they cease to exist 

 patterns repeat

and hearts ...they break

those cracks I fill

no novice to pain

I walk forward

with your false laughter 

and choppy, chided syllables

though I continue to hope 

on the doorstep 

in the pouring rains of the unknown

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May the blessings of your day be many.

The Danger in Faith

I see your face as I look in the mirror
and your shadow follows me
as I try not to look over my shoulder
Deceit and deception, you know their name
the hurt inside spills over, do you not know shame
a jagged sword that sly sweet tongue
a swift slap in the face
a line, I now draw in the cement
for which you will never ever erase
I called you friend for some years now
disappointment deeply breathes from every pore
Your deception mocked my faith time and again
Still I mourn a loss of what might've been
No more, "I'll be seein' ya"
This is the End

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Dreams

Dreams
near and far
scamper through
the fields of my heart
I make wishes upon
the dandelions
while positivity reigns
in my presence
it is absolute
I declare peace
hold hope near
breathing in the
paradigm of magic
before me ...
my dreams
near and far

Endometriosis Awareness Month

My poetry writing has been neglected, or shall I say put on hold, for the past few months as I wrote The Endo Project: Stories of Strength and Hope.  As March is now Endometriosis Awareness Month, I have been trying to spread the word about this ghastly disease in hopes of bringing validation to those who suffer in silence...as well as education to those who do not yet understand the severity of this disease.  I hope you will follow my link to my page and show your support for the many that suffer.  I am in it to end it.

Keep checking back as I have new projects in the works....*hint, hint....involving the MTV Music Awards.

Happy Saturday.

The Endo Project is now AVAILABLE!!

The Endo Project is finally, finally complete!!  My hard work has paid off.  It is available now!  Check out my author spotlight for a preview!!

Get up close and personal with woman who have suffered or are suffering with the incurable disease, Endometriosis. This book chronicles the struggles of many women through narratives, monologues, and poetry. If you are suffering with this disease, it may bring you validation or comfort in knowing that you are not alone in your fight. If you have never heard of this disease, come face to face with women who remain strong in the darkness of an incurable, little known disease. Through the courage of others, we can bring about awareness, compassion, and advocate for a cure. Join us on our journey.

The Endometriosis Project

Aside from some tricky formatting issues, "The Endometriosis Project: Stories of Strength and Hope" is now complete.  It is a great relief that I managed to finish it in time for Endo Awareness month in March.  I am beyond exhausted today and feeling quite cross-eyed but, I feel very proud to have stepped out of my normal poetry writing comfort zone into such a super project that has put me in touch with some really powerful, faithful....and strong women.  The book chronicles the journies of 20 women who have struggled and/or are struggling with this disease.  The project doesn't stop here either.  It will only get bigger and better.  The process has been full of joy and pain...and so, so healing.  I can't wait to announce the release.  Stay tuned.  :)

Sweet!!

I am super excited that I have already received about ten submissions for my Endo Project - personal stories of struggle and triumph through poetry, art and narrative form .  I never cease to be amazed at the strength of women who fight this disease and really, any person that fights any disease for that matter.  This book means so much to me.  It's healing and brings hope for a disease with no cure!!  If you want to share your story of struggle or triumph battling Endometriosis, please email me at TheEndoProject@aol.com or you can find me on facebook.


In the meantime.... a little poetry ....


Raindrops kiss my face
cooling a fever 
bringing sweet songs 
of fond memories
to a contempletive heart
my dreams dance with hope today
my eyes glistening with stories
....yet to be told

Contest!

Happy Sunday.  I hope you are having a lovely, restful, blissful evening.  I know I sure am.  I am at home posted up with the pup and Madre.  I just finished up a heavenly dinner and am about to be cozied  up with a cup of green tea and thoughts of poetry on my mine!  :)  


There is a contest going on at my facebook fan page RIGHT now!    


Enter now....and SHINE ON!!

p.s.  Don't forget about the Endo Project.  See last blog entry!!  It's shaping up to be an awesome project and I already have about twenty people working on their "story".

Endometriosis - Project.

Hey readers, I am working on a very important project for 2012.  I want to compile the stories of other women and/or men who have suffered and/or triumphed in the face of this disease - endometriosis.  You can depict your journey however you please...in poetry form, narrative, art...you name it.  I will be putting  a book together that I will self-publish to help spread AWARENESS for this disease.  If you are interested in being a part of this project, please let me know.  Many of you who have suffered with this disease may already have "your story" written out but if not, you'll have some time to get your story together - if you wish.  It can be as short or as long as you would like.  It's your story and your message.   Education is the key.  I hope to reach those who are struggling and need validation.

Want a free copy of my book?

I am having a contest over at my facebook fan page.  Stop by, like my page and post your New Year's Resolution.You could be the recipient of one of my poetry books.  Good luck and happy goal setting!!!  All I can say is Bring it on 2012.  After some rockin sales in December, I am going to be blasting my poetry like never before in 2012.  Now off to write out my Goals/Resolutions.  

(courtesy of google images)

Take, take, take....

Some people learn where to draw the line immediately.  For some, it takes days, weeks...and for some of us it can take YEARS.  I find it amazing how we can know another human being so well...their thoughts and what they want or need just by their mannerisms...and at the same time, how incredibly sad it can be that they in turn know NOTHING about you and only present themselves in your life when they need something and can completely cut you off when you become inconvenient by needing something in return.  Have you ever found yourself in this kind of a situation?  I've decided, it's not really my place to be everyone's soft place to fall.  The burden is too heavy and the consequences too detrimental to my psyche, my heart, and my well-being.  Mantra of the day...if you're not into give and take then, I'll be seein' ya.

courtesy of google images

Shining Acceptance

I waited for your hand, your heart
craving your remembrance
as my heart sat broken
amidst tears and turmoil
though, I sauntered along
a path of bitter-sweet
stealing moments of happy
here and there
biding my time, soaking up
rays of serenity
those times of peace exist more
as I scamper along this path, this life
and open my heart to the freedom
of acceptance, the acceptance
to love and be loved once again

GOLDEN GLOBES!!!

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It is Time.....

it is time....


to flee from reality

bask in the blur of dim candle light

camp out on the living room floor

with soft blankets and big, fluffy pillows

throw in some ice cream and chocolate

while pondering ideologies - old and new

slip into the fantasy of a great movie

and trail off to slumber to the great voices

and wondrous minds of cinematography

of long, long ago...