Want a free copy of my book?

I am having a contest over at my facebook fan page.  Stop by, like my page and post your New Year's Resolution.You could be the recipient of one of my poetry books.  Good luck and happy goal setting!!!  All I can say is Bring it on 2012.  After some rockin sales in December, I am going to be blasting my poetry like never before in 2012.  Now off to write out my Goals/Resolutions.  

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Take, take, take....

Some people learn where to draw the line immediately.  For some, it takes days, weeks...and for some of us it can take YEARS.  I find it amazing how we can know another human being so well...their thoughts and what they want or need just by their mannerisms...and at the same time, how incredibly sad it can be that they in turn know NOTHING about you and only present themselves in your life when they need something and can completely cut you off when you become inconvenient by needing something in return.  Have you ever found yourself in this kind of a situation?  I've decided, it's not really my place to be everyone's soft place to fall.  The burden is too heavy and the consequences too detrimental to my psyche, my heart, and my well-being.  Mantra of the day...if you're not into give and take then, I'll be seein' ya.

courtesy of google images

Shining Acceptance

I waited for your hand, your heart
craving your remembrance
as my heart sat broken
amidst tears and turmoil
though, I sauntered along
a path of bitter-sweet
stealing moments of happy
here and there
biding my time, soaking up
rays of serenity
those times of peace exist more
as I scamper along this path, this life
and open my heart to the freedom
of acceptance, the acceptance
to love and be loved once again

GOLDEN GLOBES!!!

Well, my book made it to the American Music Awards of 2011.  Help me get my book displayed at the 2012 GOLDEN GLOBES by purchasing my books!!!  This is the biggest celebrity event of the year!!!  I am so excited!!  Reduced pricing and FREE ground shipping are available for a short time!!!  

It is Time.....

it is time....


to flee from reality

bask in the blur of dim candle light

camp out on the living room floor

with soft blankets and big, fluffy pillows

throw in some ice cream and chocolate

while pondering ideologies - old and new

slip into the fantasy of a great movie

and trail off to slumber to the great voices

and wondrous minds of cinematography

of long, long ago...

Other exciting news......

Here is my newly reddesigned cover for my 2009 book.  Brushing up on my MS publisher skills.

What do you all think?  

Feel free to take a look at my storefront on lulu.com and leave me a review.  It would be so greatly appreciated.  

I am super, super excited about releasing my next untitled book!!! 

I am pretty pumped up about the recent celebrity exposure of  "Trailing the Truth Fairy: A Poetic Journey" at the 2011 American Music Awards.

I am ready to bring in the New Year with a Bang!!

Give Thanks.

Today I give thanks for many things....family, friends, success.

 Most importantly, my family.  There is such completeness to life being part of a cohesive, loving unit.  The safety and protection that I feel is beyond words.  I know a few good souls have my back and I, theirs. 

Today, I celebrate my success however small it may seem to others.  I feel the magnitude of the fruits of my efforts and appreciate all of those that have encouraged me along the way.  Life is truly what you make of it and I am glowing right now.

 I am so grateful for the my friends who keep in touch, especially my far away friends.  It is so nice to be remembered and thought kindly of.

 My life, this blessing...is a true gift and I, a testimony to the power of prayer, faith, and love.  Karma has been my friend and I know no words to show how grateful I am for the paths I continue to take.  I appreciate the hard earned lessons and today I can say I am proud of the life I live.  Happy Thanksgiving, friends.  Let us give thanks today and every day.  May the festivities begin.

Brooke Hogan with book "Trailing the Truth Fairy: A Poetic Journey"

Brooke Hogan with MY book!!

Today is one of the happiest days of the year. Yes, really.  As most of you know my book was being showcased at the American Music Awards. It was in the gift suite.. and my poetry cards were in the swag bags that were passed out to the celebrities.  I can't even begin to tell you how pleased I am.  I have been working on my poetry and promoting my books since I began this blog a couple of years ago and being involved in this event has just brought my motivation to a whole new level.  I am beyond exhilarated and never really expected my poetry to go anywhere beyond this blog.  Thank you to all my friends who passed on words of encouragement along the way and supported my poetic efforts.  This is so wonderfully amazing.

 

There's my book....on the top shelf!!  Wow!!!

My book...on the top shelf.  By the way, the skateboard was s
signed by the celebrities to benefit VH1's Save the Music.

For more AMA photos, stop by my poetry page at www.facebook.com/NoelleDunnPoet  and remember, my books are available on lulu.com

Charlotte Artist to Exhibit for the 2011 American Music Awards!!

The count down begins!!  My press release is complete for the 2011 American Music Awards!  I can't wait for my poety to be part of this super cool celebrity gifting event!  

I am beyond excited and hopefully I will get back some super fabulous pictures after the event!!  

Mosaic of Sun

A mosaic of sun shines upon
the shadows of what once never was
yet those words I hear...
I love you so much
are words I shall bury and hide
on dark days there will be no need
to search and  to find
words, nurture and soothe

a much cluttered mind

in words a friend I find

...in words, a friend I find
I'll sift through the sand of a heavy heart
and scoop them up..those treasures of mine
"I love you so much"
...scoop them up those treasures of mine
oh my mosaic, you shine....

Postcards for the American Music Awards

These are the postcards that will in the celebrity swag bags for the American Music Awards.  

I am very excited to say the least. 

 My book will be on display too!!

Sweet Autumn

I vacillate between dreams
conscious and unconscious
of Autumn happenings
apple orchards, cinnamon donuts
pumpkin farms, hay rides
fall foliage of crimson and gold
breathtaking views
sweet aromas of apple pies
home cooked meals and hot chocolate
 I hunker down wrapped in my soft robe
tea in hand and pup at my side
my heart fills of happy thoughts
of this season so cherished
as I experience the moments of Fall
if only in my dreams

The Walk

I'm on this walk

this journey through time

where I exist only in the eyes

of the sincere observer

but there are so few,

so few who choose to see

and look for my truth

it is there for the knowing

but is that only knower me

I walk through days stormy

and welcome days serene

I make it one step at a time

as I free myself of judgment

and the sudden misfortune

of black coal actions and choices

that cast fire upon my

thoughts and perceptions

leaving me solo to clear the ashes

and nurse wild burns

of ego controlled actions

I concentrate - fully aware

of each step, each breath

as I walk, though

there are those times

when I must walk - alone

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So, I'm working on creating  an inexpensive product to put in these swag bags for the AMA's.  So far, I've come up with cd sampler with a selection of poems or blank note cards with selected poems.  It would be way to expensive to give out whole books.  I just don't know which is best.  Any ideas?  Also, any other creatives out there interested in getting their creations out there, just email me and I'll direct you to my contact.  There's a cost involved but it's worth it if you're serious about getting your art, writing or whatever it is you create out there.  Anyway, back to looking for inexpensive note cards that I can customize ..... I think I can I think I can.....

Whew!!

I have been quite absent from my blog these past months.  It's not because I have nothing to say but, too much to say.  So many thoughts and so many circumstances yet, I have neglected my the passion that keeps me grounded and sane.   Things have been - great, just busy.  I'm super excited that both of my books are available on lulu.com and my first book "A Portrait of the Human Heart: A Collection of Poetry" is available on itunes and bn.com ( as well as on lulu.com).  I am working on getting my second book "Trailing the Truth Fairy: A Poetic journey" on itunes and bn.com as well.  The formatting aspect is tricky for me to do so I am pulling my hair out at the moment.  I'm also redesigning the cover to "Portrait" so I'm spending a lot of my creative juices on that as well.   Also, I have the opportunity to put my writing in the swag bags that they hand out to celebrities at the awards shows...AMA's are coming up soon.  Keep your fingers (and toes) crossed!! 

xoxo Noelle

Still

I still dance
you know?

in the presence
of fear
or amidst
certain danger

I still sing
you know?

In the fledgling
moments of the
here and now
I stake claim
to my spirit
by nurturing
power

I still believe
you know?

as I'm down
for the count
and dreams
are deemed lost

I dance
I sing
I belive

You know?

Poet of the Week!!

SPEECHLESS

are you one of them? (I don't think so)

creating your pain, refusing aid

hiding behind the past, denying the future

the shadow following you trips you up

chained to you like bad memories

buried deep inside, down in the dark

I feel your pain, you aren't alone

I know the weight of your burden

don't let it take your life

I wish I knew what to say

what to do to keep you from giving up

there's so much good (love) right in front of you

don't let it eat us alive

it has only the power you give it

you know you want this...be brave

life is tough and no one gets a pass


Thanks P for sharing your artistry with us!!

Syrum of Sadness

A syrum of sadness spreads
like an infectious diseaese
left untreated..there is no hope
as it attacks vulnerability
leaving questions unanswered
and friendships forgotten
a heart and soul stew in melancholy
mixed with disappointment and
maybe a sprinkling of resentment
when is one to say enough is enough?

Spinning in Circles

a dizzy blur surfaces


you spin in circles exhausting

all spiritual avenues towards coping

as a haunt from the past taunts and

shakes the wet, cool grass beneath your feet

teetering your confidence

you see that ghost, it longs to tether your

heart and grip your silhouette

daring you back to old stomping grounds

as you shudder and shake

he laughs at you, chides

handing you dangerous tools

that may only cause further torture

to your ever searching soul

a spirit dying in vain, hiding in shame

you resist the offering,

though your resistance is weak

you long for a halo of love to

swim above your aching head

and bring sense to the madness

from which there appears

to be no escape

Poet of the Week!

Proud to present my blogger friend Ajey from The Odds are Good but the Goods are Odd



Unable to see any hope on the horizon



Unable to identify the hope at the distance


I am at a place where I cannot return


I am at a place where I cannot express


I am lost at a familiar place


I know the questions of my heart


But, the answers do not satisfy me

The street lamp outlines your body


But, I need to see your eyes

Ever since our lips met


Hope was restored

This paralysed heart


Plagues by jealousy


Needs to be set free

Come, lie with me this night


That I might wish upon


Stars within your eyes






Copyright © Ajey Padival 2009

Looking for the next poet of the week..........

Any volunteers for poet of the week? 

I could use some something fun and fresh....a song writer maybe???? 

Let me know.

My own writing has been so neglected.  Still at a loss for words or maybe that's not accurate....just not enjoying what I'm producing. 

Be well all. 

Poet of the Week - A Tribute

A Tribut to Lady Topaz

The house lies silent

I grieve your sweet, gentle nature

Shed pure soft-hearted tears

Your loving temperate soul

resides amid the heavens

For you were a life giving Angel

Who nurtured and loved

Those hearts that loved and knew you best

This tender tribute stands

The seeds of Love you shared while here

Will harvest new in Heaven

༺❀༻

(courtesy of Helena)

Lady Topaz

Please visit my new friend, Helena, at Memory Box Creations.  She is grieving the loss of her beloved fur baby and could probably use a little blogger love.  God bless you Helena....may your sweet Lady Topaz rest in peace. xoxo

If you would like to be Poet/Writer/Artist of the Week, please feel free to contact me.  My goal is to support and feature a creative friend each week!!

How do you get past writer's block?

I had this conversation today with a very talented musician friend.  I feel like we all experience it for short periods or even long periods of time.  So many factors come in to play and sometimes it is hard to pin point.  My writing usually comes from a very deep place and to really release it I need freedom.  When I say freedom, I mean freedom from internal and external noise.  I have to find a way to quiet my the noise - external easy ..internal - not so easy.  I meditate often and read Stillness Speaks (I may have mentioned this book before) also, The Power of Now.  These books really are so powerful for me.  Many thanks to aforementioned musician because he introduced those books to me.  Anyway, these books really guide you through catching the noise and negative thoughts in your head.  If you're like me, and I find many creative people are....our thoughts keep going and going and going - IF we let them.  So, aside from these books exercise always helps me clear my mind AND laughter.  Laughter has saved me again, and again and again.  Helping others and connecting with others is key as well.  So these are the things that clear the slate of my mind.  I'm interested, how do you wipe your slate clean and open the door for your creativity?

Blood Song

My heart bleeds of...
loneliness
disappointment
uncertainty
despair
fear
as I gather to make sense of it all....

Yet, my heart sings of...
love
redemption
faith
friendship
fulfillment
strength
and
HOPE
as I accept that I will never make sense of it all.

Happy Sunday!!!

I do not know where the week has gone!! I have so many things going on. Great things, happy things. That being said, I missed my own deadline for poet/artist of the week!! I do apologize to my precious writer that I was to feature this week. Instead of posting it late...I will wait until mid-week as usual. Again, if you would like your poetry, writing or art to be part of my weekly feature, please let me know. Leave me a message or contact me via email.

I did want to share some good news. I have been published, again, by the Copperfield Review. I was featured in their spring edition and now have been published in their SUMMER edition. I could not be more proud!! Now, I just need to start setting some more writing goals and get back on a schedule. I had planned to write so much this summer but after the publication of my second book on lulu.com, I have hit a bit of a dry spell.

Even more good news...Friday, I got together with some great girlfriends to see Easton Corbin, Sara Evans and RASCALL FLATTS in concert. It was a blast!! I Won't Let Go...theme song of the night...and just a song that touched me deeply - as they sang, I thought about what really matters.

Much love, Noelle.

Poet of the Week

Please allow me to introduce you to the wonderfully talented Larry from Yesterday, Today, and Forever.  Take a peek over at his blog and you will be lost in the bliss-ence of beautiful, magical, whimsical words that remind you what life and love are all about. 

If you would like to be featured as Poet of the Week, don't be shy - drop me a line!! (Also welcoming writers and artists.)  We don't discriminate here. 




Nearby Surprise


when the end of the day is a nearby surprise
affection begins to shelter the struggle
companionship rises, common mind's rhythm
deal with things left undone

hopeful perfect laughter
misfortune, injuries near or long past
finding perspective through intimacy
trampled dreams revealed
empathy, oh, compassion challenges
ideas of loss and renewal
did we have "that" talk...

somewhere nearby
the crane flails night air
rises from the creek
silently ascends the moonless night
two listening to their hearts
gasp as one


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For these Moments...

I seek solace in
the reflection of your eyes
it is there that I exist
in a sunny day of perfection
I shine for all to see
as I live flawless
in that picture you sketch
I stand proud - glowing
as I see myself so clearly now
for the first time the snapshot so crisp
and it is for these moments
I am in need for nothing more..
I am in need for nothing more...... <3

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Oh, Serenity

Today seems magical
almost - mystical
the sun  hiding amidst clouds
the air I breathe - summer cool
Mist of rain along morning's path
I raise my head up - towards the universe
splendor and enjoyment....will it last?
all that is missing...is my cup of tea
piping hot...oh, serenity!!

(photo bucket)

Today is a perfect day to visit my
guilty pleasure - Teavana!   I'm thinking
a cup of samurai chai mate blended with white
ayurvedic chai will suit me to a "tea"

What's YOUR guilty pleasure??




(google images)



Poet of the Week

Much gratitude to my friend Rebecca over at Veils of Rapture for allowing me to feature her as the Poet of the Week.  Please follow the link to her page for some more of her fascinating poetry.  Rebecca is gifted, introspective and so kind.  If you would like to be featured as the Poet/Artist of the week, please let me know. 


Sometimes

i love how it feels

when pieces fit together

meticulously in my mind

bordering an infinite vision

bound by this drive

sometimes so hopeful

but then sometimes not

if i crack or split

which i often do

i collect the tears

that puddle in my hands

but sometimes

there are too many

so they escape

between each finger

as if these tiny leaks

were a sign or a message

for me to just let go

sometimes no tears fall at all

even when my heart aches

and suffers through unbearable waves

there will always be faults

that pour from inside

sometimes i know they sting

so i rage to veil my fear

and sometimes that blinds the path

i know i must choose

sometimes though

to keep from going mad

in a mad world

i wish it was all more than just

sometimes.

Scars

they came back to her

in the dark chamber of the night

flashing before her eyes

like the lightning of angry storms

was it a dream state

she couldn't escape

she was fighting

to get her soul back

not strong enough-

not even in her dreams,

they ate her heart-

her sunshine, her sparkle

causing their fool bodies

to glow like the still moon

discarding her gentle soul

to dissipate on that

dark road of unhappiness

how does one live without

a heart or a soul?

Poet of the Week - Craftsman of Light

Thank you, Craftsman of Light at Stars in my Inkpot and Crying Skies for being the first Poet of the Week to be showcased here.  If you would like your writing to be presented here, please feel free to contact me. 



You make my heart ache like a peach tree about to flower
i collapse into the tender words of your letter


Unable to pull myself out from its laughter
i drink from its warm blue skies
Remembering
our tightly enlaced bodies.


Each word unbuttons like your thin white skirt
swaying into my thoughts
on a cool summer morning
till i wore your deeper yearnings
till i wore their silence.


June sprays on our faces
sleeves drenched
hair wet, shoes in the puddles
smiling, deliriously happy
squirming my eyes
i stood in your world.


Have you noticed how the light changes in the sky
when something beautiful drifts into our hearts.

Dreams Linger......

Small little moppet, you little head case
what dreams still linger that you dare to chase?

In the dimly lit, powder room mirror
you long for the past but your eyes see clearer

your once shiny hair, and shimmering eyes
are a thing of the past like distant good byes

You try but are unable to carefully trace
the memories that match all of the lines on your face

You think stigma surrounds you with each turned head

Anxiety bleeds from your pores - you're one step ahead

Be proud of yourself unique as you are -
you are a wish someone made on a luminous star

I'm on Itunes!!

My first book entitled "A Portrait of the Human Heart: A Collection of Poetry" is now available on itunes!  Check it out.  You can download it to your iphone, ipad or ipod touch... now for the super low price of $4.99!!!  It is also still available on lulu.com

xoxo Noelle

Pink (P!nk) - Perfect (Music Video) HQ [2011 *NEW*]

Dreams <3

I have tucked your words
beneath my pillow
in hopes that my dreams
shall capture them and
bring peace to my restless slumber
and maybe, just maybe
for some fleeting moments
before I wake, I shall truly exist
as you have written
me out to be and I may wake
with the proud memory of
my grand performance in the
starring role upon which you
have cast me

P.S.
***Thank you for calling me "perfect" xoxo***

Some Days.....

I get lost, some days
in an irritable web of impatience
which makes my skin itch
as I am bled dry of of strength
in a black hole of anxious thought
swimming in weighted emotions
vascillating from boiling to freezing
...boiling to freezing
some days.....I get lost

Afraid I'll Spill those Lies?

I see clear your face in my past
your wrongs and rights
distance has made me wise
to you and your revolving door
of go away  - come back sentiments
even now as I am to speak
only when spoken to
I see in no uncertain terms
your manipulation of undivided
and unconditional love
you knew not what you did
as ignorance was your guide
but in these here moments you
know the thoughts, words, and actions
that created a division of people
and how you made her dizzy with
jealousy because in fact, her gut
was right just as was mine
I knew you did not break the ties
before that Saturday we had tea
you reached out yet, I knew the lies inside
so now you keep your distance
are you afraid I'll spill your lies?

Poet/Writer of the Week

So, I am thinking of ways I can support poetry, song writing....basically, just writing in general. 

I would like to feature one writer each week on my blog where I post a piece of your work with a link to your blog.

If you are interested, send me an email or leave me a comment here.

Look forward to hearing from you.  

Lazy Summer Ramblings....

I am thinking of how awesome it is that I am officially on summer break...how fabulous it is that I finally, finally get to rest and recharge....how simply and utterly beautiful life as I know it has been displayed before me...and how grateful I am to be in this existence ..a pretty little gift ...that I get to unwrap day after day after day...and the people I share it with - oh my, they are just amazing...my heart overflows - period.  I am loved, appreciated, and cared for ...I have nothing left to ask for.  Life is just too short and therefore, I choose the happiness of the here and now...

...speaking of the here and now...what a lovely day that began following a night of restful slumber...early walk with Curls, an afternoon spent by the pool ....and many more of these lazy, hazy days of summer planned ahead but, I will appreciate the happiness of N-O-W....for there is no promise of tomorrow...

aaaannnd speaking of tomorrow (if it comes) I will go to the chiropractor and discuss precisely what kind of damage was done to my little bones as a result of the ugly accident and what needs to be done to fix it.....business opportunity meeting early afternoon....maybe some more time spent by the pool or even a drive out to the lake with my sketch pad or journal in hand.....

Thinkin...

Think on This ...

. . . justifying of self is blaming someone else.

Edgar Cayce Reading 2803-2

I love the Edgar Cayce Readings and they seem to speak to me very deeply.  Just food for thought!

March On...

Recent weeks have been tough, overwhelming. I was in a pretty bad car accident where my car was totaled. I thought of this song often as I have in the past. I took things day by day and thankfully, I feel this weight being lifted.

Anyway, this song - It resonated deep within me many nights back when I was sick, in pain and alone. Even tonight as I listen, I am brought back in time when I didn't know how I would make it through...but I told myself that if I could make it through the night...I would see the victory of another day...and I did...

So, march on and remember, you are never really alone.

For my Endo friends...

Check out Endo Times....they present very informative information regarding endometriosis...I was especially concerned about the post regarding lung endometriosis.  It would be interesting to know how that is diagnosed.  After all of my research on this disease, there is still so much more to learn. 

Happy Father's Day to all you wonderful Dads out there!! 

Lazy Days of Summer

The warmth of the sun
shines upon my face
I squint as I shade my eyes
with the back of my hand
a presence of serenity soothes
my shaken spirit this day
as the dream state of summer
dances before me and quietly
it whispers softly in my ear
"catch me if you can"
I smile as I know it is within my reach
and soon I will bask in those
Lazy days of summer
where bathing suits and sun glasses
become the norm and worries -
they swim away disappearing into
the hazy, lazy days of summer

Trailing Flowers....Wishes and Kisses

I dance in the presence of peace
trailing flowers and wishes
and ... the kisses of rain upon my face
in a trance, a breezy existence
my blessings, oh I count you many this night
little pieces of big dreams twinkle
in the here and now...gentle presents
finding their way inside my heart
and upon my slate of life
my blessings, oh I count you many....

Life Transforms

Everything changes
falls apart

then...
falls back into place
again....

My life is
a true testament
to the power
of believing in dreams
and following one's heart

Today, I bless all
who I have known
good and bad
for my experiences
have molded me

I am a product
of an awesome
EXISTENCE

which equates to
peace, bliss....
and all things good!

Warriors, march on.

New Dreams

the halls smell
of death and of deceit
tripping over roots
of the past as I sleep
yet, I reach
the echo of laugher
from the depths
of my dreams
life still coming up roses
so it seems...
yep, still coming up roses....
as I'm breathing new dreams

I am not sorry.

I do not seek solace in the death of another life yet, I do feel at peace with the fact that our military took out a life that spread fear, horror and unprecedented loss for my lifetime.  I relive the day of and days following 9/11 of which were and are incomprehensible.  I still smell the ash in the air of the burning buildings and bodies.  I have no regrets that the man who is the ringleader is now no longer here to hurt our Americans anymore.  America as we know it has changed since then and I mourn for what was.....and I still mourn for the families whose loved ones never made it home...and for the military who was sent over to PROTECT us.  Be grateful people.  This is no time to preach and feel sorry for Bin Laden.  His ways were not changing no matter how much praying we did.  Eye for an eye...

Sweet Freedom

Hello friends,

I received news that I am to be published in the Copperfield Review!!  My work will appear in their spring issue which whill be available on Monday, May 2nd!!  I am so excited about this.  I had completely forgotten that I had submitted to them and even what I submitted so I am really curious to find out what they liked.  So much is happening in my life right now that I can't even explain.  Two new business ventures, my second book published with an awesome cover and I had my first lesson with my new guitar and new guitar instructor....have I mentioned that poetry + music = BLISS??  I learned some new things I didn't know and have been working out my little fingers!!  I'm super excited for my next lesson.  In other news, it's almost summer and I am super excited.  I will have so much going on ... my newest business venture which is currently in the works...will be revealed soon!!

Sweet regards,
N

sweet freedom's calling your name
No time to waste in this here life
the moments we create are
the footprints we leave behind
no time for fear, worry, or anger
may every pursuit be a noble experience
which brings you closer to your goals
closer to the power you call divine
and the meaning of your very existence
each breath, each smile, each whispering word
may change a life forever
so jump on that moving train
live the dreams within
the moment is now - your time has arrived

Rock ON!!

Yay!! Finally, finally, finally bought myself my very OWN acoustic electric guitar.  It's a fender and I love it.  I'm making all sorts of noise tonight (sorry neighbors).  AND I'll be starting back up with lessons very soon...with a very good - no, awesome musician.  I can't wait to get back into it.  Already it has lifted my spirit.  Tonight is good...very good.  To top it all off I received my new book "Trailing the Truth Fairy: A Poetic Journey" in the mail today.  I love my cover ...wrestled with ms publisheer but it looks good if I do say so myself.  Now off to do some proofreading!!  Super happy.  Good Night, Noble Guests!! :)

Trailing the Truth Fairy: A Poetic Journey

I'm very happy to announce the release of my second book!!! I am super excited!! Take a look at the preview!!

You may also purchase via this Ebates link where you will get 25% off with the coupon code "aprilread". You will also receive 5% cash back! JUST BE SURE TO USE THIS EBATES LINK!! XOXO

Serenity Times Two

Breathing in the magic of these moments
an active participant in this gift - life
readily I soak in the warmth of the sun
as it raises my serenity meter times two
lyrics and verse swim through my soul
there are no holes today - I'm full 
a resident, I am,  in the experiences I create
and those that wash unexpectedly upon my shore
tranquility of friendship and kinship soothe
and settle untamed thoughts once clouded
in  the basin of waste called uncertainty
my eyes sing a song of this presence - peace
come close and you may hear...
the fruition of prayer, of hopes and of dreams
come bottle it ... if you dare....

F L O A T I N G. . . . .

The sadness that you left behind
has been washed away by salty tears

and the doubt that you instilled in me
lingers - amidst my strongest fears

Though, I know a secret and I keep it well
in a vault - under lock and key

For if I whisper it aloud
there'll be nothing left of me

So here I sit refreshed and ready to move forth
I'll come to know some grander things

but I'll hold fast to the memory of those days
when I was floating with an angel's wings

Dreams Never Die

drops of rain cool my skin
as a chill runs down my spine
I lift my chin towards the sky
and breathe deeply in and out
as I search through clouds 
of white and grey for a sign 
of sun's light, a pinhole of hope
a dream lingers close
I feel the pattering of my heart
thump, thump in my chest 
I make a wish and blow 
a kiss to the sky
my eyes smiling wide
as I dare to dream....
and in my heart - this life....
Dreams Never Die

Are you a Poet? It's World Poetry Day!

When Time Stands Still

temporary healing
brings about fleeting hope
those moments when the hands
of time stand still
as I dream, the clock has stopped
an untamed heart, wonders, ponders
and believes that someone
is watching, waiting
seeing these scars
as badges of insurmountable courage
fueled by a heart that refuses
to let go
an eternal dreamer just waiting
for the final fantasy, the last
train when two hands become
intertwined forever
locked together for
the purpose of dual strength
a magical duet, the finest
performances striking
high, hopeful, happy chords... 

On my way...

I would feel empty
though, I already knew
the truth before I even tried
to ask for help - so simple a task
yet they didn't reach back
I should  feel sad yet,
I don't because I felt it before I tried
I have my few and that's all that matters
the others won't drag me down
no they will not make me frown
they just ask and ask but don't give back
a change has shifted in my heart
and I will never feel the same
but I feel strong now as I face it head on
and the rejection won't stand in my way
I'm building dreams and facing them head on
this girl has found her way...yes,
I have found my way

Tower

I pause and reflect
upon the mosaic of my existence
recollecting scattered thoughts
as the ill mood of irritability
blows away like a dandelion
in the ferocity of a powerful wind
I allow realization to surface
and readjust my frame of mind to
accept that the fire within is deep
it is wild - it is fierce
it may dwindle but
only for so long as it takes
to revel, recharge, and reassess
for it fuels long lost dreams
and ignites passion owned by
my courage and desire to
confront the unknown
as the myriad of feelings
both unwanted and undesirable
work cohesively to draw the shades upon
my world as I know it and jade
my view of hope and serenity
though they stand powerless
against the omnipotent tower within

(a repost)

"I was made for chasing dreams..."

Life can be so challenging at times yet, I really do feel more beautiful today than I ever have before.  I have made some dreams come true and more are to come!  My second book is almost ready to be published, I have had more sales on my first book (still sharing proceeds from sales this month) and I am in the midst of so many more blessings!  Life really IS truly subject to change, don't sweat the small stuff - a process, I know...still learning here but embracing the spirit of allowing and letting go!!  xoxo 

My Journey

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Don't forget, if you buy my book this month - I will be donating proceeds to my favorite endometriosis charities.

Endometriosis and Infertility

Thirty to forty percent of all women with endometriosis struggle with infertility.  In fact, endometriosis is one of the leading causes of infertility.  Visit Fill Their Arms.  Their mission is to help spread awareness and help with the emotional and financial burden caused by infertility.  

Endometriosis Awareness Month

March is Endometriosis awareness month.  In order to support the cause and help educate the public about this disease, I am donating a portion of the proceeds of my book sales for the ENTIRE month of March.   

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one liar plus one liar must equal two...

lured into insanity and manipulation
constant flow of go away, come back
go away, come back
she thought your words true
your anticipation as genuine
though, truth always reveals
a pawn in a charade she was -
yet not priveleged of knowing
how foolish must she seem now
as she sits and stares - truth in the face
no stranger to the equation
one liar plus one liar must equal two
two people very well suited for each other

The Ghost of Endo....

Whispers

I still dream of you
Ella Blue
your whispers wake me
so I scan the room
still utterly shocked 
you're just a dream
life is cruel - so it seems
you visit my slumber in the darkness of night
I can't escape you though I try with all my might
the girl in my dreams with bright blue eyes
is replaced with emptiness, and sad sighs
I'm dizzy in loss on this dark, paved road
tears trickle in the shadows of my quiet abode
cold shivers of regret, despair and fear
I'm cursing the disease that brought me here
cradling the nights alone in the dark
til morning sun tries to warm my heart
I hope up and look to a brand new day
where acceptance comes back and regret's at bay

Blessing Love

The Love in my heart is deep and devoted today and every day.  

May you receive the blessings of love in every form possible.  xoxo 

Happy Valentines Day!

Love is in the air!

spread the magic, show you care

buy some candles, flowers, candy too

a truehearted one is waiting for you

nuzzle up by candles, fire light

renew your bond that burns so bright

share your heart, a poem or a prayer

a puppy biscuit, if he's the only one there

It may be a season or a lifetime of love

a gift, a glimpse of a snow white dove

Hold fast to these moments if you dare

of these fleeting memories...life's love affair

Breaking Pain

your visit was brief in the darkness of night
you took my hand, I knew I'd be alright
you spoke of silence, stillness, and ego controlled thoughts
singing words of strength - quieting my agitated heart
as hope fluttered inside my being
once again, I basked in your healing
I forgave your absence as I apprecated the release of fear
soaking in your peace as you sat near
watching my gut-wrenching thoughts walking away
no longer captive of my own silence I had much to say
your softness revealed - a charm I had forgotten
I was again a  fairy - being showered by flowers in this garden
breaking pain over a cup of hot tea
embracing the grace of God as it washed over me
then, I awoke and watched you disappear
that fiction - my fortress must've brought you here
just a place between thoughts in a hush of my dream
my friend, again -  you are gone so it seems

Black Noise

jagged, double-edged sword
cut's deep and raw tonight
commotion whirling inside my head
doing my best to calm the storm
I repeat enchanting melodic lyrics
enveloping each and every word
wondering how it even creeped in ...
that black and ugly noise

For My Friends....

"Encouragement walks behind you. 
Hope walks before you. 
A friend walks with you." 
- author unknown

Finding my Muse....

I will be buying my own guitar.  Soon.  I hope it looks like this.  It probably won't though.  I can't afford a custom made guitar.  Besides, I want an acoustic electric guitar.  But, seriously - this guitar has Noelle written all - over - it.  Hearts = Me.  *Sigh.... So, yes I will be back on the path to finding my muse...back on the path to following dreams.  I lost this dream along my stumbled path the past two years.  Funny though, the same tutoring gig that began my adventure of learning to play this beautiful instrument just might be the same gig that gets me back to holidng a guitar - no - my OWN guitar in my hot little hands.   And, maybe a new guitar instructor to boot.  I'll admit - I'm a little  VERY excited.  This is the year where dreams come true, my friends....dreams will be coming true.  

Wow. Just Wow!

I have to admit some days are just better than others - well, actually - some weeks are just better than others.  It never ceases to amaze me how the universe just reaches out with kindness precisely when you need it.  I found another award awaiting me today.  I'm stunned to say the least.  Not so much by the award itself but the words I received along with it.  I have to thank the lovely Lenzey at Life, Love, and Living in it it for making my day brighter.  Go visit her blog - you will not be disappointed.  She's a very strong woman who has battled the ugly endo - as I have and has dealt with the  experience like a true warrior princess.  She has walked the same path as I regarding the disease.  I often look to her blog for words of strength and hope in dealing with the aftermath of  hysterectomy.

Again, I rebel from the rules for same previously state reasons.  I pass this on to all of you on my blogroll on the right hand of my page so if you read this - here's my gift to you.  Sorry to be a rule breaker but I just can't leave anyone out - must be the teacher in me.

Why now?

These days may keep me busy
though the suffocation of anxiety
spreads wild, burning holes in my soul
vying for acceptance to make me whole
throughout the night as I long for rest
cursing this enemy - my unwanted guest
my mind lacking clarity and devoid of peace
steals the stillness I dare to seek
bleeding tears and chasing fear
I find no solace in these moments here
A creeky bridge I am these days
praying to God to send me  rays
from the sun of hope ... or faith or love
hoping he hears from up above
just getting by - dodging the daggers
dizzy with impatience - I lean and swagger
processing loss and stabilizing sanity
just getting by and dismissing the vanity
that seeks to destroy what's left and strong
as I'm dreading the melt down that's coming along
I search for a hand in the darkness of night
while pleading for relief from this current plight

I stole this quote from my brother....

Time decides who you meet in your life
your heart decides who you want in your life
but your actions decide who remains in your life...


I found this quote on my brother's facebook page and found it very profound and fitting.  I have been contemplating many of my choices and where I place my loyalties.  It's time to be loyal to myself -first.  I tend to be loyal to a fault - allowing other's to determine whether or not I will remain in their lives or they will remain in mine.  What's up with that you ask?  I know the feeling of abandonment and rejection all too well and I suppose I think everyone deserves a second chance - a come back so to speak.  The problem is, I give too many chances.  You know the old saying "history repeats itself"?  Well, I just allow history to repeat - repeat - repeat.  I have to begin to take notice when my feelings are being disregarded in these situations and be comfortable with drawing the line.  So today I say - no more!

Wait.....What?

Wait.....what?  Yes, that is what I said when I received the above....You can only imagine my surprise when the gift of this stylish blogger award was bestowed upon my blog.  I feel awkwardly flattered that I was even considered a recipient.  A much needed smile was placed upon my face and I  must admit I was a tad speechless.  Anyway, I want to thank Blue Lou and That Girl with Endo from the bottom of my gracious heart for thinking of me. Please go visit their pages - they are a true testament to the strength and courage that goes along with dealing with illness - illness with NO cure!!

 I must however rebel from the rules for the time being as I can not seem to be able to pick out who I'd like to pass the award along too.  I can say this - if you  visit any of the blogs I've listed under my "beauty in words" header on the right side of my blog - they deserve this more than me.  You all inspire me - daily.