Sia - Breathe Me

A song that touches me every time...



Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah, I think I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Sia - Breathe me

Ideals

I am an eternal dreamer
and so loyal to a fault

I love floating away to solitude
bringing nonsensical mingling to a halt

I will wait for the best of the finest dreams
and all of those ideals that I have conjured up

and so I continue the search for the largest rainbow
for which will guide me to the golden cup

it will be a grand chalice to sip that brings
sweet love and friendship 'til the end

as the owner of the steaming brew will
not doubt me or pretend

to be moving forth to
something we may both want

when the beginning really is the
end and it's only purpose is to jaunt

Floating

The sadness that you left behind
has been washed away by salty tears

and the doubt that you instilled in me
lingers - amidst my strongest fears

Though, I know a secret and I keep it well
in a vault - under lock and key

For if I whisper it aloud
there'll be nothing left of me

So here I sit refreshed and ready to move forth
I'll come to know some grander things

but I'll hold fast to the memory of those days
when I was floating with an angel's wings

Somebody's Somethin'

he's still waiting on that hand to hold
a heart to have, maybe some truth to be told

hoping's slow now to be somebody's something
boring of the wait and being nobody's nothing

thinking to hard and way too deep
worrying a lot, skippin' out on sleep

doubting comes quick, trustin's never been secure
loyalty's in front of him - her truth is pure

Subject to Change

Those words I once penned
in the stillness of night
were left carelessly out in the rain

the bleeding, ink and blurred remains
are all that's left behind

I gave a shrug and a sigh
beneath the cobwebs of my mind

where the voice of intuition whispered
you've been down this path before

but the weight of a hopeful heavy heart
doubted that escape clause

which in no uncertain terms
sang I'll love you now
but not 'til forever
for life is subject to change

Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas to all of my friends and readers!

I so appreciate your kindess, comments and critique. This blog has given me purpose, a bit more self-respect and just maybe the realization that I might have something important to say every now and then.

May your days and nights be blessed! Believe in those dreams that hide deepest within you.

Much love and warmest wishes,

Noelle

Read

Show Me The Way Lyrics

here.

Every night I say a prayer in the hope that there's a heaven
And every day I'm more confused as the saints turn into sinners
All the heroes and legends I knew as a child have fallen to idols of clay
And I feel this empty place inside so afraid that I've lost my faith

Show me the way, show me the way
Take me tonight to the river
And wash my illusions away
Show me the way

And as I slowly drift to sleep, for a moment dreams are sacred
I close my eyes and know there's peace in a world so filled with hatred
That I wake up each morning and turn on the news to find we've so far to go
And I keep on hoping for a sign, so afraid that I just won't know

Show me the way, Show me the way
Take me tonight to the mountain
And wash my confusion away

And if I feel light, should I believe
Tell me how will I know

Show me the way, show me the way
Take me tonight to the river
And wash my illusions away
Show me the way, show me the way
Give me the strength and the courage
To believe that I'll get there someday
Show me the way

Every night I say a prayer
In the hope that there's a heaven...

'twas just a dream....

his words drip with disinterest
and the truth is revealed
as he fails to look her in the eyes
no questions left to ponder
as all uncertainty is gone
he wants to have it all his way...
the poison of his self-centeredness
has chipped away her desire
to follow through with acquiescence
in hopes of something more
the apparation reveals the truth
in the day light of her mind
'twas just a dream of a lonesome heart
and now it's time to say good bye

Savor

it is time....
to flee from reality
bask in the blur of dim candle light
camp out on the living room floor
with soft blankets and big, fluffy pillows
throw in some ice cream and chocolate
while pondering idealologies - old and new
slip into the fantasy of a great movie
and trail off to slumber to the great voices
and wondrous minds of cinematography
of long, long ago...

Tower

I pause and reflect
upon the mosaic of my existence
recollecting scattered thoughts
as the ill mood of irritability
blows away like a dandelion
in the ferocity of a powerful wind
I allow realization to surface
and readjust my frame of mind to
accept that the fire within is deep
it is wild - it is fierce
it may dwindle but
only for so long as it takes
to revel, recharge, and reassess
for it fuels long lost dreams
and ignites passion owned by
my courage and desire to
confront the unknown
as the myriad of feelings
both unwanted and undesirable
work cohesively to draw the shades upon
my world as I know it and jade
my view of hope and serenity
though they stand powerless
against the omnipotent tower within

A perfect Autumn Saturday for carving a pumpkin.......


It was wonderful!

Autumn Dreams

Fever fluctuates as
I vascillate between dreams
conscious and unconscious
of Autumn happenings
apple orchards, cinnamon donuts
pumpkin farms, hay rides
fall foliage of crimson and gold
breathtaking views
sweet aromas of apple pies
home cooked meals and hot chocolate
nurturing this body back to wellness
I hunker down wrapped in my soft robe
tea in hand and pup at my side
my heart fills of happy thoughts
of this season so cherished
as I experience the moments of Fall
if only in my dreams

Crossing Over

You didn't ask, didn't care
disinterest apparent
through your blank-eyed stare
your magic is gone
you snuffed it out
the person I thought I knew
disengaged, stepped out
I thought you saved me but,
you just prolonged my plan
to cross over that bridge
and forget it ever began
I reached for you,
you had nothing to say
so now I send myself on my way
you hide in the temple of the holy ghost
though you reject the one who needs you most

Longing.... (a repeat)

I long for my ideals and dreams to
collide and explode like fireworks
in the late night sky
your words play as a repeated recording
in my head while my heart skips a beat
as I anxiously await to hear more lyrical
musings spill into my body like the warmth of
the sun during a lazy spring sabbatical
where worries are few and dreams multiply
I have trapped your words deep in my heart
and I yearn to hear more so I may
unleash the butterflies of spring from
my cloaked existence and feel the
energy of something bigger, better like
a grand valley of connection where the jasmine
and gardenia grow and the birds participate
as tiny musicians that flow like perfection
with your lyrics in my head

Dreaming North

fragility seeps into my body
as pain spills through
antagonizing any remaining
confidence in modern medicine
I seek comfort in my surroundings
though my heart is elsewhere
as the onset of Autumn
along with depletion of strength
finds me dreaming north once again
to the place I once called home
I long for the strength and safety
that somehow made me whole
and the purpose driven path
I seemed to have left behind
I exist there in my dreams
and memories in my head
until the time when I
may travel back again

Uncertainty Within

hope withers as words agitate
once lyrical musings
from lips thought serene and safe
as rough waters shake the bridge
beneath already unsteady feet
though the dance is not over
as faith steps forward and
sways to an uncertain beat
where timelines and tradition
have no role and chivalry
that forgotten word
swirls in a dizzy mind
questioning uncertain principles
that guide actions of right and wrong
in an effort to make sense of it all
though self removal of that inner battle
brings calm to turbulent waters
a storm may be brewing that could
snuff out faith and quiet music within

Surrender

Sun dried tears and wayward dreams are often left unseen
as are muffled cries in the night and lingering wishes in the sky
as the egoic travels of an untamed mind ponder unsettled desires
only adding fuel to the burning embers of the inner flame
a body weary and devoid of rest searches for peaceful slumber
as the unheard thoughts of an illusory mind seek answers, validation
which leaves a lonely mist filled heart to exist all alone
agitated by psychic pollution amidst a painful losing battle
meanwhile all the answers can be found
in the hush between a moment's pause
in that place called stillness, sanity does freely speak
and so it softy whispers...surrender, and you'll fly free

catch up....

I've been doing some catching up on your blogs and although I have not been able to comment on each and every one...I just want to say, WOW!! What talented people you all are...from the poetry, stories, paintings...it is all so great! I feel so inspired after I visit your pages - I've been under a bit of a dry spell with my writing - everything seems forced and those words that used to overwhelm my poor head seemed to have taken a break...I think maybe all I needed was your inspiration!! Fingers crossed!!!

Be well, friends!

Hollow Halls

Brilliance spills forth
from eyes full of light, life and love -
magic takes flight as your warmth ebbs and flows
creating a forcefield of kindness, security
that shields my existence - it is that which draws me in
though, there are those times when the radiance escapes,
sets sail to parts untraveled, unknown and
the windows to your soul draw their shades
I am left to enter the seemingly hollow vestibule
of your seemingly distant heart through a darkened doorstep - your eyes -
and walk the lonely corridors, seeking answers
to questions unknown in echoes of confusion coupled with fear
though I search and wait in hopes of rounding that corner
and arriving in the chiming presence of long laughter
where I may bask in the glow of love safe and serene....
I pace and I pray, may your brilliance shine again.

The Walk

I'm on this walk

this journey through time

where I exist only in the eyes

of the sincere observer

but there are so few,

so few who choose to see

and look for my truth

it is there for the knowing

but is that only knower me

I walk through days stormy

and welcome days serene

I make it one step at a time

as I free myself of judgment

and the sudden misfortune

of black coal actions and choices

that cast fire upon my

thoughts and perceptions

leaving me solo to clear the ashes

and nurse wild burns

of ego controlled actions

I concentrate - fully aware

of each step, each breath

as I walk, though

there are those times

when I must walk - alone

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Hugs,

Noelle

Forgiveness is a Gift of Peace...to Yourself!

The power of forgiveness
beams within as a gift -
a gift from my friend, the Universe
it wasn't asked for, but I give
it freely just the same as insanity,
that symptom of underlying fear
spoke volumes to my existence,
my very way of life at that moment
I judge not for no judgment is needed
I see it for what it was -
a paradigm for conditioning,
hard wiring that was not meant for me
I forgive and I let go, I accept
and that shame placed upon me
dissappears into sweet freedom,
that freedom I call peace
the serene bliss that exudes
is a testament to my soul,
the soul I thought I lost when
I pounced back at the claws
of insanity, disgrace
these moments are mine as
I watch, I know, I am aware
I have arrived home....

Meditation

I have eluded fear, insanity
this heart may mend
though somewhere deep within
I vascillate between
confusion and consciousness
once again I relax, meditate
for signs, for hope to guide
me past the disgust and sadness
that spill forth as a result
of those choices we made,
those choices that haunt
I mark this almost celebratory day
by a theme of healing
as I light my candles
I bestow a wish upon each
warm, flickering flame
forgiveness, rejuvenation, cleansing

Control

just a body exists here now
a heart left out on the road
separated - I tried to save it
or maybe it was trying to save me
though, I still feel its pain
as you drove over it
your car screeching as it slid
you might have dragged
it up over that curb
I think I'll leave it out there
probably nothing left of it now
I wonder, would we still be
on our way...
if control hadn't
come in to play?

flight

See you sometime

this bird's taking flight
here or there, it'll all end up
the same, that's right

sadness, scars - long since
dried up tears
no more twice over looks
no more snickers and jeers

ready to feel the sun and
the breeze through my hair
don't try to catch me, I'm
flyin too fast now, I swear

making my way finally
to the other side of the rainbow
that dream has long since been mine,
did you care, did you know

Awareness

As I walk through the raindrops my hesitant heart sings
of the here and the now and the serenity it brings

burning embers of joy pump through my veins
I forget the worry, the fear, those ever looming strains

the waterfall from heaven cleanses my soul
I feel the stillness of the present play its ever soothing role

the illuminating clarity, the quiet space between thought
silences the black noise in my head that my awareness caught

I've let go of the past, no fear of my own future
I bless my existence in the now, and this universe - my teacher

The Heart's Identity

A heart and mind wrestle with the pain
trying to make sense of an occurence which
attacked a body so unprepared for what was
to bring about this shift in the heart's identity
and hopes for what could be, still might be
and may never be
Hope lingers, though it will not light
as it refuses to look past the present for the fear
that still resides may only serve to douse that flame
- the flame that could light for tomorrow
and shine til forever
a change has taken place, the shift
flows past innocence and swallows forever
as nothing will ever be the same again

If

If love could save you
I'd chase it, bottle it and
leave it on your doorstep
I'd suffer any indignation
offer up my respect
hand you the darts
and smile all the same
as you threw them at my heart
If love could save you
I'd never leave your side
I'd lay silent at your insulting
words and pretend I have no pride
I'd be the pawn you seek to own
and freeze happily in your wild stare
If love could save you
I'd count the years, the days, the hours
until I would find you well
it would make the torture bareable
and all the pain worthwhile
If only love could save you

Angels of the Midnight Choir

Angels of the midnight choir
protected her in the late night fire
there was no hurt nor drawn out tears
only self preservation, escape from fears
finally free of that indignation
those wild eyes and consternation
she won't look back down in that portal of hell
Seeing clearly now, two lives must dispel
in that mode of fight or flight
those angels led her to freedom that night
those wishes she had were just illusions in the wind
and those words of truth, his actions rescind

Candlelit eyes

Candlelit eyes shake those notions
you've been drinking too much of
that dreamer's love potion
it has made you woozy, and slighty off key
yet, you enjoy those moments
when I'm all you hoped I'd be

power

the power of words hit
so suddenly, you are blindsided
sequence, tone, definition
annotation, whispers, shouts
speech in circles, voices raised
shutting down, deepened wounds
split wide open
fears of now, then, and
maybe when lead to giving up,
giving in, sad departures leaves
lonely fools, unable to escape
the pain that rules

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