These days may keep me busy
though the suffocation of anxiety
spreads wild, burning holes in my soul
vying for acceptance to make me whole
throughout the night as I long for rest
cursing this enemy - my unwanted guest
my mind lacking clarity and devoid of peace
steals the stillness I dare to seek
bleeding tears and chasing fear
I find no solace in these moments here
A creeky bridge I am these days
praying to God to send me rays
from the sun of hope ... or faith or love
hoping he hears from up above
just getting by - dodging the daggers
dizzy with impatience - I lean and swagger
processing loss and stabilizing sanity
just getting by and dismissing the vanity
that seeks to destroy what's left and strong
as I'm dreading the melt down that's coming along
I search for a hand in the darkness of night
while pleading for relief from this current plight
6 comments:
oh yeah... know this, been there, done that... still reaching!
:)
Even though you have fear and anxiety, your obvious strength will get you through and that is very powerful.
i have had so many nights like this, and you found a way to capture it so well. only from the heart can something this real be, only from the heart.
I left an award for you on my blog.
http://lifelovelivininit.blogspot.com/2011/02/it-feels-like-im-living.html
Thanks ladies!
Noelle
like you said, some days, even weeks, are better than others
but the rest is truly a bitch to plow through
you're not alone
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