Moving on!

I'm back and better than ever .... writing up a storm and hanging with some new friends...unloading the users and those that seek to do nothing but gratify themselves. I am working on being true to my 2010 resolutions - actions speak louder than poetic words - those I write and mostly those I hear and that I am sometimes stupid enough to listen to - if someome mistreats you or fills you with empty promises, RUN. Those who love you will move mountains to meet in the middle somewhere. The best predictor of future behavior is that of the past. Trust your gut, it will save you heartbreak. This girl is moving on. I'll be posting a lot of things that I have written over the past year that may or may not have been posted before, some insightful - some not. Look forward to your input. xoxo

I Wait

she can envelope and encase you in real love if you let her try

the agony of the past will be long forgotten, you'll soon see why

she'll introduce you to a love so loyal, strong and true

she's been in the shadows, patiently waiting for you

I wonder if you've ever considered how she felt

and how your sensitive nature makes her heart melt

she so admires your multidimensional personality and your style

in your presence she can relax and be mellow for a short while

time has not yet been on her side

still she waits and waits, her heart open wide

she feels the warmth of hope in each rising sun

that soon the love of your heart might be won

Will You?

You may understand how I unraveled,

for on the same path you have traveled.

If I lean in your direction,

will you give my heart protection?

If you place your hand in mine,

I think again, the sun might shine.

and upon the shadows of my face,

there will be no longer be a trace.

Will you be my port in this storm,

and show me tenderness to keep me warm?

Will you promise to be a true friend,

and love me 'til the very end?

Together, there may be a fleeting chance,

to live a happy, true romance.

Good Bye 2009

2009 was a very eventful year. As I made my resolutions and conjured up new dreams last year on this very day, little did I know the reality I would come to experience. What a roller coaster ride the past year has been. I have known happiness, sadness, sickness, health...and well too many other things - many of which you have read through my sometimes true to life poetry. Just like last year, I have resolutions and dreams. I love the blank slate of a new year..nice, neat clean pages upon which I will continue to write my story. Hopefully the wisdom of 2009 will only serve to light my fire within and I will walk my path to fate. There are lots of new changes that happened for me at the end of 2009, both good and bad, so I am ready to soar above and live the life I'm meant to live! I want to thank you, dear readers, for your continued support, friendship, and love that you have so kindly bestowed upon me. I never knew what I was getting into one year ago when I began this blog and friends, it's been worth the ride! Bring on 2010. Are ya with me?

Sia - Breathe Me

A song that touches me every time...



Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah, I think I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me, I am small and needy
Warm me up and breathe me

Sia - Breathe me

Ideals

I am an eternal dreamer
and so loyal to a fault

I love floating away to solitude
bringing nonsensical mingling to a halt

I will wait for the best of the finest dreams
and all of those ideals that I have conjured up

and so I continue the search for the largest rainbow
for which will guide me to the golden cup

it will be a grand chalice to sip that brings
sweet love and friendship 'til the end

as the owner of the steaming brew will
not doubt me or pretend

to be moving forth to
something we may both want

when the beginning really is the
end and it's only purpose is to jaunt

Floating

The sadness that you left behind
has been washed away by salty tears

and the doubt that you instilled in me
lingers - amidst my strongest fears

Though, I know a secret and I keep it well
in a vault - under lock and key

For if I whisper it aloud
there'll be nothing left of me

So here I sit refreshed and ready to move forth
I'll come to know some grander things

but I'll hold fast to the memory of those days
when I was floating with an angel's wings

Somebody's Somethin'

he's still waiting on that hand to hold
a heart to have, maybe some truth to be told

hoping's slow now to be somebody's something
boring of the wait and being nobody's nothing

thinking to hard and way too deep
worrying a lot, skippin' out on sleep

doubting comes quick, trustin's never been secure
loyalty's in front of him - her truth is pure

Subject to Change

Those words I once penned
in the stillness of night
were left carelessly out in the rain

the bleeding, ink and blurred remains
are all that's left behind

I gave a shrug and a sigh
beneath the cobwebs of my mind

where the voice of intuition whispered
you've been down this path before

but the weight of a hopeful heavy heart
doubted that escape clause

which in no uncertain terms
sang I'll love you now
but not 'til forever
for life is subject to change

Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas to all of my friends and readers!

I so appreciate your kindess, comments and critique. This blog has given me purpose, a bit more self-respect and just maybe the realization that I might have something important to say every now and then.

May your days and nights be blessed! Believe in those dreams that hide deepest within you.

Much love and warmest wishes,

Noelle